I’ve always been an ‘anniversary’ person. For as long as I can remember, I have marked my calendar to memorialise the big days, the small days, the special ones and seemingly un-special ones.
Thinking about how that day would feel like a year from now, two years, five, ten, always grounded me in the reality that it would pass. In the face of hard moments, the hope I would someday celebrate it passing reminded me that I would make it through. And years later, I’m reminded that I DID make it, and however many more times I will have to make it through the future. However hard it may be right now, before I know it, I’ll be celebrating that it passed.
Around this time a year ago, I left my familiar haven in Goa and moved all the way to Delhi, a city I never, in my wildest imagine thought I would be living in. When I first got here, I was so overwhelmed by what I felt was the sheer impossibility of ever finding a place where I would fit in. Some several ups and downs later, I can say with some amount of confidence that everything turned out alright.
Better than alright, actually.
I met some wonderful people, befriended my own solitude, learned that anything good in life requires you to go several extra miles, and if you’re lucky enough, the people waiting at the end of it only make it so that it cannot be any other way.
From believing the present couldn’t pass soon enough to wishing it lasts forever, I write this today knowing how impossible my life would’ve felt to me just a year or two ago. In the best way possible.
And that calls for a celebration doesn’t it? Without the spectacle of champagne and laughter and party poppers, but a deep exhale at the end of a day I never thought would be MY life — I’m grateful, I’m happy.
This too shall pass. In the face of every peak and valley, my cheesy Pinterest boards and cheesier loved ones never failed to remind me of this much too overused line. I probably rolled my eyes a couple of times too. But it did, in fact, pass. It always has.
And I’ll celebrate that for the rest of my life.
While we’re at it, happy one year ~moving away from home and starting college~ anniversary to me!!!
“You have to hold out to see how your life unfolds, because it is most likely beyond what you can imagine. It is not a question of if you will survive this, but what beautiful things await you when you do.
Good and bad things come from the universe holding hands. Wait for the good to come.”
- Chanel Miller, ‘Know My Name’
It's been a long time since I've posted on here! I've been unable to complete any writing assignment outside school/work of late, but recently, I celebrated this tiny life milestone that my friend encouraged me to blog. So here I am hitting publish before I have time to convince myself otherwise. Thank you as always for being here.
beautiful as always♥️
Bestie! Sooo proud of you. And you've grown sooo much and it literally feels like you've matured and become a stronger person. More power to you Jade💪💕